Love, A Gentle but Cruel Thing

By iameunicegm - 1:34 AM

heey there.

have you ever been in love?

i'm not talking about the love that is based on lust, or peer pressure but the kind of love i'm talking about is sacrificing for the other party. daring to give up everything and step together in times of trouble and happiness daring to say no to the people who you have trust all this while and follow your heart that says this is the right move?

i'm not sure if i did. frankly speaking, i hate being in relationships. i dare to say that all these while, all the relationships that i had been in, is based on wants and not on my needs. well, it's not that i don't love those people...but...i don't think my love is big enough to sacrifice everything that i have right now.

i had seen relationships failing, relationships that looked real but all in it is fake, relationships that is too cold to be call a relationship. it just makes me cringe when someone talks about long term commitment.

thinking back, i guess that's just the few ways how God tries to teach me what is LOVE. He taught me so much about this issue that i learn to accept things the way it should be. i can say, i learn it the hard way?

i guess i fail? or am i just waiting for the right relationship?

according to the bible, based on Auburn,

1 Corinthians 13:4-7.
Its says "Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; 5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; 6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things."

well, i can say my love has not been that huge before. only for one person but at times i don't know if i am doing the right thing. the people around me kept telling me that that is the best but... when the day is gone, you just can't help lying there, thinking about all the huge decisions that you had made in your life.

Love.

it does not have any meaning until someone comes by and give you a reason to do so.

love,

a beautiful thing that hurts a perosn to the core,

love,

a small feeling that could turn HUGE with time that goes by,

love,

how can it be so gentle yet so cruel?

to quote Auburn again,

If you love someone, you understand when you're bad for them. And when they're bad for you. And out of love. You let them go. And the best way to let them go and get over heartbreak, is to find the author of love, ...the one who gave you that heart in the first place.

soo, have you been in LOVE?

xoxo,
eunice gm.