My leg is recovering and though it is not as strong in balancing but I am able to walk in a better shape these days so I would love to hit back to the gym. It's been quite some time and I miss the sweaty body and the feeling of empowerment. 

And I also want to paint more. It's been such joy to be able to create simple paintings with acrylic paint and I would like to try to do more of that this month. Of course, I am not gonna let go of cooking as I feel it is something essential to being an adult so I am going to keep learning new recipes. 

Oh, I am also taking on a small project for the upcoming 30 days, focusing on decluttering the house. I managed to sell some items in March but I got to work harder this month. The contract dateline is almost time! 

Now, what are your goals and intention for the upcoming month? 

xoxo,

eunicegm 

Work has started to pick up again and there would be more meetings and training sessions going on so I got to buckle up and prepare for the crazy schedule again! Vaccine is also in Malaysia now so I am sooo READY to be call upon to get my first dose of vaccine although I think that may only come to my turn in May or June, or even end of the year. 

The contract of this current house is coming to an end in June so I would need to start organizing, selling things off and resize my things to fit into a smaller unit. I just hope my heart can be strong enough. I tend to be a hoarder of weird items and that needs to go gurl! I hope I managed to sell of a huge chunk of furniture and things before I make the move though or else it's gonna be my sorry ass, carrying most of the things. 

The goal for this month would be to cook more, care more for my face and learn a new recipe. Let's see how things goes! 

Now, what are you looking forward to the most in the month of March? 

xoxo,

eunicegm. 

Hello there, 

The first half of the month, I entered the year with a heart filled with hope that the year 2021 would be a better year. I got myself organized, on track on things and even try to start up a Podcast, blogs more, read more and all the things that used to get me excited. I was having fun handling it but then all these positive feelings left when I hit the second half of the month. The mood starts to drop and I think I spend a lot of my time sleeping, especially when I do not have to work. I felt super tired and even trying to shower take a whole lot of energy from me. 

Of course there are fun things that still continue to go on. My friends and I decided to help a lady with managing her social account and it has been fun setting up the account to get more awareness and engagement of what is going on. This sweet lady worked with a couple of people who lost their job during the pandemic and she sold them at a slightly higher price and whatever profits that she got from there, it goes back to the community. As of now, she had raised RM4000 plus in the last 3 months of the year 2020. It's called Fish4Charity and you can find them on Facebook and even Instagram. 

I continue to set an alarm to forced myself to read more and it has been working. I finished 2 books and it was such joy to mark if off in my reading challenge in GoodReads. It used to be so easy to read but these days, it is kinda challenging to sit myself down and spend time with the books. I hope it will get easier once the reading motor starts. 

In terms of mental health, I am struggling a little at the end of these few weeks. Thoughts come and go and I had to push it aside as always. I tried to paint, I tried to doodle but somehow I just don't feel like doing anything. I was told to try to include an activity that brings me joy when I was a child but I don't think I remember doing much other than reading and hanging out with friends. At this moment, I'm trying not to hang out in bed so that I can avoid sleeping. Oh, I am improving on my sleeping habits as I tried to stick to my routine by 12.30AM where I will brush my teeth, wash face, put some perfume on and putting a stop to social media. I tend to feel more emotional when I am on social media so that is also one thing to keep an eye on - less social media and more engaging media I guess? 

Therapy has been hard and I am kinda dreading each week, not knowing how my emotional state will be at the end of the day. She is helping me to talk more and it always seems that I am reliving back all those memories that I try so hard to put away. I am having a feeling that this is also why I got back into the den but to heal, I got to keep trying. I got to keep doing this if I want to get out of this pit.

I will be having a visit with the doctor regarding my ankle and I am hoping that all is well. I hope to be able to walk soon and able to be off this crutches. There is also training sessions which would be starting soon in February so there is something that could take over and give this brain something to think about. 

The month of love would be here but there aren't anyone to celebrate that this year I supposed. I am hoping that social media will be slightly gentle with things or I could learn to switch off these feelings of mine when I see those triggering news. 

Oh - Covid cases are at 5000 plus these days so I hope *badly* that these cases will go down in February. We have CNY to look forward to and I am doubting we could have any parties so say goodbye to nosy family members. 

Cheers to another month of 2021! 

xoxo,

eunicegm